I'm Afraid I'll Loose It

I'm in love with it! It is the best thing in my life and with out I would have never made it...but I get this feeling that I stand at the brinks of loosing it. I don't know how, but just when I think I have secured it I do something stupid against my will or understanding to wreck what I have gained and hold so dear to my HEART!

I know by now I should have learned and learned to be comfortable with it. But for some reason... I just don't seem to learn...from the last mistake. I can't live without it... but once again I have bruised it, hoping I did not crush it.

God knows I have prayed... never let me loose it or I will loose it! The value of it can not be measured, but the lose of it... I can not and will not say how great it would be.